General Andrew Johns Says Drug Scandal Pushed Him Close To Suicide

Jesbass_old

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From: www.nzherald.co.nz

Fallen Australian league idol Andrew Johns has revealed that he considered taking his own life on more than one occasion during his illicit drug scandal in London and Australia.

Johns was arrested for possession of an Ecstasy tablet outside a London tube station on August 26 and spent five hours in jail, where he admits to having been "on the verge" of suicide.

Drunk and high from a binge session, Johns decided against taking his own life behind bars, however he would face the same dilemma only a few days later as the media pounced on the story of his British arrest.

"There were media out the front of my house. Some were ringing the doorbell on the front wall," Johns reveals in his autobiography, The Two of Me, released today.

"I was on my own, pacing the house, going up and down the stairs, looking out the curtains, a prisoner in my own home with journalists and TV cameras parked on the footpath.

"That's when I became close to being suicidal. I consciously thought of taking my own life.

"I was in a massive state of depression, thinking, 'What have you done to your family and those closest to you? What have you done with your life?' This was all while the media were outside my house, sweating on a big story.

"I'm not disclosing this to get any sympathy or to make the media feel guilty. It's not easy admitting a tough, big-shot footballer was on the verge of suicide because he'd got some bad headlines. But it's part of my story.

"And maybe it might bring home just how bipolar can affect someone; the fact that 15 per cent of people who suffer the condition commit suicide is a scary statistic.

"I'm sure glad something stopped me taking that way out of my dilemma that day."

Johns, who retired because of a neck injury early this year, believes his use of illicit substances traces back to problems with alcohol and a battle with bipolar disorder, a mental disease he's carried most of his life but which was only diagnosed in 2004.

The Newcastle, NSW and Australian Test champion had always planned releasing a brutally honest autobiography, even before his drugs arrest and nationally televised confession on The Footy Show four days after his London arrest.

"I've carried the guilt for years that the perception of my life has been such a lie," he wrote.

"To be brutally honest, I hated Joey Johns. I hated the superstar-type figure I was perceived to be and I hated as much the person I really was.

"Now, and I'm only talking about since the second half of 2006, I am finally comfortable with who I am as a person."

And he remains nervous about the negative reaction his book may generate, not only for him but also for the game of rugby league which made him a superstar.

"I am worried about the reaction I will get. But the fact is I couldn't offer my memoirs as another version of the lie I feel I have lived."
 

Jesbass_old

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This sort of thing can’t be taken too lightly. As a suicide note recipient myself, I’d like to think I have a fair grip on some of the trauma that mental illness can cause. Thankfully he’s getting the help he (and many others) need.
 

MiXmasterreece_old

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If Joey had read through the ' Game: The Player List' thread he might of gone through with 'it'
 

Skinny_Ravs82

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That bit about beig at home, and having the journos hanging around and things...wow its hard to fathom what he had to put up with for so long
 

*Kimmy*_old

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i hate andrew johns.
since someone *mason* has stolen his limelight he needs to find a way to get it back.
congratulations andrew, you have succeded.
 

Jesbass_old

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i hate andrew johns.
since someone *mason* has stolen his limelight he needs to find a way to get it back.
congratulations andrew, you have succeded.
Kim, that's harsh. Whether the timing is suspect or not, suicide and mental illness is not something to be taken lightly.
 

*Kimmy*_old

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Kim, that's harsh. Whether the timing is suspect or not, suicide and mental illness is not something to be taken lightly.
Yes, I know that.

But my opinion is, if he was actually serious about it, why would he tell it to the whole world? I'm not saying ever suicidal is looking for attention, because that is certainly not the case, but in my opinion I just believe Andrew Johns is needing attention.
 

Skinny_Ravs82

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Yes, I know that.

But my opinion is, if he was actually serious about it, why would he tell it to the whole world? I'm not saying ever suicidal is looking for attention, because that is certainly not the case, but in my opinion I just believe Andrew Johns is needing attention.
No I diagree. This is a condition that even the world's best sportmen can and probably do go through at some point and it has nothing to do with attention seeking. It does bring to the surface much more awareness then what most people would know on the condition and I think its good he's letting people know/remind people again. Not something to take likely.

Although if we're talking attention-seeking in league circles at list this is something worth noting compared to mini arguments over players and their contracts...etc
 

sportsthought_old

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maybe if he laid of the drugs, he would have been in a better mental state
 

*Kimmy*_old

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Although if we're talking attention-seeking in league circles at list this is something worth noting compared to mini arguments over players and their contracts...etc
I'd much rather hear about player contracts, then the supposed best player to ever play our game (who was taking drugs all his career) wanting to kill himself =|
 

Jesbass_old

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I'd much rather hear about player contracts, then the supposed best player to ever play our game (who was taking drugs all his career) wanting to kill himself =|

And fair enough, too. Nobody likes to hear about someone almost ending their own life.
 

*Kimmy*_old

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And fair enough, too. Nobody likes to hear about someone almost ending their own life.
Exactly.
Especially when my sister went to a funeral today, the boy hung himself.
It just makes me think that Joey Johns' 'thinking about it' abit petty ya know?
I dunno, I can't seem to explain my opinion on here the way it sounds in my head :S
 

Jesbass_old

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Exactly.
Especially when my sister went to a funeral today, the boy hung himself.
It just makes me think that Joey Johns' 'thinking about it' abit petty ya know?
I dunno, I can't seem to explain my opinion on here the way it sounds in my head :S

It definitely isn't petty. I know someone very well who attempted suicide, but only failed because I found them just in time. Just because he didn't follow through with it doesn't mean that him seriously considering it is petty. Perhaps, instead of thinking less of him, it would be better to be grateful for him and his family that he didn't commit suicide.
 

Mangi-Maori_old

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how serious was his mental illness ... that's what I would like to know. Was he on anti depression drugs? Did he spend time in mental care?
I'm not accusing him of lying, however it is a definately a great? sales ploy.
 

Jesbass_old

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how serious was his mental illness ... that's what I would like to know. Was he on anti depression drugs? Did he spend time in mental care?
I'm not accusing him of lying, however it is a definately a great? sales ploy.

And fair enough. There will be people questioning the legitimacy of this all. I for one am going to give him the benefit of the doubt, and I do understand he has been seeing specialists, who presumbably prescribed him anti-bipolar dugs (different from anti-depression drugs).
 

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